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Reading Material

I have gotten super picky about my reading material over the last couple of years. Maybe its because I’ve been forced to read so much content in nursing school that I’ve kind of lost touch with what it means to “read for pleasure.” Or maybe my taste in books has changed without me realizing it. Either way, I just don’t pick up books like I used to.

These days, when I pick up books, I’m looking to learn something. I’m not looking to be lectured. I repeat – NO LECTURES! I’ve gotten enough of those from my college education… I’m just searching for that text out there that will inspire discussion and even stir up my emotions. Books with a message, research texts about a topic that interests me, something that makes me question myself to better understand who I am. I realize, reading this back, that this sounds like a huuuuuuge feat, but truthfully for all of the content out there all it really takes is for me to read one thought provoking sentence to completely change the way I think.

TEDTalks are a great example of what I mean. I’m looking to learn something new, hear the point of view of different people, see a topic in a light that I hadn’t even thought of before. I actually own a couple of books written by authors who were TEDTalk speakers.

My selection process goes a little something like this:

Basically I’ve been guilty of the following:

  • Selecting one book over another because of its price
  • Selecting no books because of their price…
  • Selecting one book over another because of how it looks
  • Disregarding all books from a particular author that I have previously read and disliked; regardless of any change in writing style/topic selection that the author may have undergone

I feel guilty that these are incorporated in my selection process, but its the honest truth.

The even more honest truth is that I go to Barnes and Noble to read books for free while drinking coffee at their little café. I’m a full on moocher.

HOWEVER! When it comes to bloggers that I follow, all bets are off. Unlike books, I can enjoy following a blogger who has completely different interests than my own. I don’t even have to be blown away by their blog layout. Best of all, I don’t have to bring cash up front to view their posts. Books and blogs are like two different dimensions. I read several different blogs, and have done so for several years. Bloggers are great because although they are usually themed – style, cooking, technology, gaming – I get to indulge and share in the excitement of whatever they’re posting. And that’s something that a good majority of books can’t do, truly connect with their audience. I say majority, but I know there are plenty of books out there that completely tear through you and force you to see pieces of yourself that you may or may not have wanted to see. Bloggers more easily achieve this kind of reading catharsis for me, just because I get to know that person. I can interact with them. I can follow them through their own daily journeys and see their struggles as they parallel with my own. Some bloggers I use for an escape, since their lives are so different than mine. I don’t know if my blog does any of these things for other people…lol okay I know it doesn’t…but I do enjoy being a part of the blogging community. Even if it is just me ranting about things 90% of the time.

Okay so now I want to hear from you guys! This is a daily prompt, but I still want to know your answers.

How do you pick what blogs or books to read? What’s the one thing that will get you to pick up a book or click on a link every single time?



TEDxFIU “Reimagine Possible”






I am officially going to TEDxFIU!

I was really worried when I found out that student tickets sold out in like five minutes. So today I decided to camp out in front of my computer for 10:00am when the general admission tickets would become available. 

I’m not even sure who the guest speakers are going to be, but last year’s TEDxFIU was a huge success, and I didn’t even know it happened. To be honest, the fact that I get to participate as an audience member in any TEDTalk is mind-blowing. I have been a fan of TED and watched numerous speakers inspire and educate me on a variety of topics. I think I’ve even blogged about a few of my favorite speakers. I plan on continuing to do so as well. I will be periodically checking their webpage for updates. I am just so excited, you have no idea.

That being said. I just had the most terrible anxiety building up as I was refreshing the ticket page.

Has anyone ever done this before?

I have to admit, though I have in the past bought tickets the same day they were made available, I never had to camp out for tickets. I mean, I’ve camped out for various other things (Black Friday deals!), but never for an online purchase.

It’s kind of a nail biting experience. All you do is sit there and wait for the website to start selling the tickets, you’re compulsively clicking refresh again and again. Your palms get all sweaty. Your heart starts to pound like crazy within five minutes before the time they become available, mostly because you realize that maybe your computer or cell phone clock isn’t in sync with whatever the website’s clock is. Not to mention my crappy internet connection. Why do I pay so much money for below average connection speeds? I digress. So, around 9:55am I was in full refresh-click-mode.

But when my computer clock changed to 10am, a fiery motivation took over my body and right index finger. THIS IS IT. THE TIME IS NOW.

BUT NOTHING HAPPENED WHEN I CLICKED REFRESH! So, naturally, I panic. I focus all my energy on keeping my eye on the prize. I WILL CLICK THIS REFRESH BUTTON FOREVER. I WILL GET MY TED TALK TICKET!

See you guys there.





TEDTalks – my favs

As you may know, I talk about TEDTalks basically all the time. Pretty sure if you cut me I bleed inspirational/innovative speakers. I love that shit. I’m going to discuss some of my favorite ones, because…YES!

The first TEDTalk  I want to discuss is about body language, you can watch it here. Amy Cuddy is a fucking great speaker, and she made me leak from my eye faucets the first time I watched it. I have also shared/showed this TEDTalk with more people than any other, probably because it can pertain to just about any human being on this planet.

Cuddy holds a PhD in Social Psychology and has done extensive research, over several years, on the topic of nonverbal expressions of power.

Cuddy covers a variety of power dynamics that your body language controls, specifically the release of particular hormones in correlation with “power” or “submissive” body positions.

Cuddy’s research also uncovered that naturally non-alpha/submissive people can achieve the same release of hormones and behavioral affects by “faking it.” What she explains is that a person whose body language and behavior are more submissive can actually change to become more powerful or dominant by forcing themselves to assume powerful positions – since these poses will still release dominate hormones. When I first heard this I was like “oh, shit!” Naturally, I immediately started to incorporate these power poses into my every day activities – since my anxiety already releases substantial amounts of cortisol, I feel like any little bit can help!

My favorite discovery from this TEDTalk is the “Pride” pose, which I have come to refer to as the “VICTORY” pose! Studies have shown that even the visually impaired take on the pride pose in times of accomplishment or joy, true story. This is a natural and universal body position that just so happens to decrease cortisol production and increase the release of testosterone. I’ll let Epke Zonderland show you here:

Epke the “flying Dutchman,” for those who don’t know, is a gold medalist on the horizontal bar and recently has been honored via a wax replica of himself. He was also my desk top background for several months, because he is hella nice to look at is great athletic inspiration.

I have been incorporating the pride/victory pose in daily life, similarly as I practice positive thought reinforcement in the mornings. I just pop my arms up and hold that shit for two minutes, then go about my merry way.  I even did this last semester prior to taking my maternal and newborn nursing exams!  I feel like I wasn’t aware of what my body language cues were doing prior to listening to Cuddy’s talk. I would always be in slouched positions, and I think that I still continue to do so out of habit. Similarly I was all about the “taking as little space as possible” with my body language without even understanding why, but it correlates with my anxious feelings as well. SCIENCE! I love it. I’ve forced myself to assume the “wonder woman pose” whenever I am standing now (you can see it in the top picture), and I must say it makes me feel GLOOOOORIOUS.

Have you seen this talk? What was your favorite part? What kind of positions do you naturally assume and are you aware of your own body language? Yeah, that’s right, I’m engaging in a conversation. Mad? Feel free to answer back.