So, for those who were curious. I got the job that I previously applied for. I’m really excited about this. But it also means that blogging has slowed down – you may have already noticed. The hiring process involves a lot of question answering, phone talking and person meeting. Basically, a lot of my time.
Something else happened, a close family member of mine passed away. So I haven’t really been feeling all that blog-ish – despite being gifted a tablet that I didn’t deserve by a beautiful friend that I love to pieces. I have come to find that the grieving process goes in cycles. Sometimes I’m totally fine and I can work on my course work without a problem. Sometimes I just break down and cry. I was advised to keep busy while I process this, so I will force myself to do things that normally entertain me in an attempt to distract myself (exhibit A: blogging). But at the end of the day, and really at the start of it too, I am alone and a giant mess of feels.
This happening has really put a lot of things in perspective for me. I know I couldn’t have known it was going to happen, but when it did, I really took in the responses people gave me. Without trying to sound like a complete asshole, and I mean really I don’t give a fuck if I do, I know now who supports me and who doesn’t. Thanks for giving up on me, it made it easier for the both of us. Today I have realized that I don’t have any guilt left to give, just anger.
Going back to that previous comment, the one about blogging slowing down. I’ve been recently nominated by my peers for some awards. I am always honored when someone does this, but as of recently, I haven’t had a lot of time to respond to those posts. So this is my shout out, don’t let my lack of response make you feel ignored – I haven’t forgotten you – my head just isn’t fully in the game. Ya feel? I hope so. This message goes out to Teepee12, Annie, and Sheen Meem – you guys already know you’re cool, just bare with me on my slowness.
Anyway, to avoid this post becoming a giant hunk of lame, I’d like to throw fun things at your faces.
For one, my homeboy (people still say that, right?) CulturedLeftPeg AKA My Nurf Herder AKA North Wales King of Popty Ping, brought to my attention the coolest of news – Ben and Jerry’s ice cream announced they’re going to be making an Anchorman 2 themed flavor called “Scotchy Scotch Scotch.” I’ve never been happier, I swear. Here’s what it looks like:
Also here’s a little kid running around in a light Halloween costume. I like it. It makes me “aaaaaaaaw”
Also, my Canadian friend sent me a super boss song, I wanted to share it with you all. I’ve listened to it a couple million times already…lol
Sorry this post sucks, here’s a pikachu eating a burger.
October 24, 2013 at 10:18 am
I am sorry you are feeling out of sorts including the death of a member of your family.
Congrats on getting a job which means you are super busy. Sometimes the hours in time aren’t long enough.
October 24, 2013 at 12:14 pm
Thank you sheenmeem, I promise to I will get around to you award.
Thanks – I’m excited to start the job, since it took such a long time to attain. But yeah, like I said, it takes a lot of my time right now.
October 24, 2013 at 10:47 am
Hi there Super, First let me say I am sorry for the loss of your loved one. I lost my favorite cousin in the universe last summer (cancer) and his death hit me really hard. Still sometimes I find myself thinking, “I’ll give him a call…oh no I can’t.” I think WHATEVER you feel is RIGHT while mourning. It’s a confusing process, very messy and no one else can tell you what you can/should feel.
I cracked up at the end when you said “sorry this post sucks” I’ve wanted to do that a million times but never had the courage. And sometimes those are the ones that get the most notice by people. Go figure.
What kind of job did you get?
October 24, 2013 at 12:17 pm
Thanks for your support Sue, I’m sorry for your loss as well. It was cancer for him as well. Yeah, its hard to find the “proper” way of going about this whole thing, but you’re right – my feels are my feels.
LOL, well, I was depressing myself at one point…and I was like…no one will like reading this…I should add fun things.
I’m going to be a nurse tech.
October 24, 2013 at 12:19 pm
Congratulations on the new job!!
Yeah, I never think you’re boring but I know what you mean. ha.
Cancer really really sucks.
October 24, 2013 at 11:36 am
Wow, what a full-on time. Sorry to hear about the family loss. That’s rough and I wouldn’t know where to begin with words that might make any difference. Of course you’ll be full of a thousand feels. Probably more. Just emit them in absolutely anyway you feel fit. Like you said, being busy is all well and good, but that’s a distraction, not a dealing with it, and it won’t make you feel any different. Not that you should feel any different. Ack! See what I mean? Not a clue how to use words for good in this instance. Know that I am thinking of you though, and I wish for you the best possible outcome through all this, whatever that may be.
Congrats on the job though! That is good news, and well done to you. This post doesn’t suck, either. It’s honest and open and… you. And therefore it cannot suck. And it has absolutely freakishly awesome looking ice-cream. I want some!!
October 24, 2013 at 12:20 pm
Thanks Ewen, your thoughts of support are awesome, thank you so much for your kind words. I think I get what you mean. I like to face up to my feelings in small baby steps, cause I’ve had times before when I’m just like “open the flood gates” and I think it takes far longer for me to get over things that way. :l Hence the distractions all the time.
Thank you again, I’m excited to start it. You’re one of my homeboys EJ, we need to try this ice cream and share our reviews of it.
October 25, 2013 at 9:55 am
I didn’t even ask… when do you start the new gig?!
I can definitely understand all that. Baby steps are good. Likely the best way to process. :)
And you’re one of my homegirls (is that a thing?). If I can get that ice-cream here I’ll try it for sure! You may have to let me know what its like though, knowing the supply (or lack thereof) of Ben & Jerry’s in Aus.
October 24, 2013 at 12:55 pm
Congrats and getting the job you wanted! That is a very exciting feeling. Sad to hear about your loss though, hope you’re well. :)
October 24, 2013 at 1:54 pm
Thank you Smash, I am super excited to start my new job. Thank you for your kind words, you’re too cool.
October 24, 2013 at 1:03 pm
Sorry to hear about your loss, kiddo. Keep that chin up. If you want to virtual-vent, feel free to hit me up.
And I’m loving my ‘North Wales King of Popty Ping’ moniker. I’ll make sure to include that in my next pod ;)
October 24, 2013 at 1:57 pm
Thanks man, lol, I’m not so sure there are many people that enjoy listening to me viral-vent :l
LOL – yeah, I’m going to include microwaves some how in future posts, until then I just get to attach it to your new title. OSHITNEWPODCASTCOMINGUP
October 24, 2013 at 2:58 pm
More than happy to listen/read anything if you need to get it out :)
I might have to make myself a nice little name plaque, complete with full title. Next pod’s likely Sunday at the latest. Away at a wedding for a few days before then… but then I’ll be podding it up!
October 24, 2013 at 1:45 pm
Super me mega hugs my girl, SUPER MEGA.
Also, dat song…..!
October 24, 2013 at 1:58 pm
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 grrrrrrrrrrrl you already got an ear full of these feels. I love you.
Yeah, my friend Aidan has a lot of great songs that he shares with me :) I'll be sure to send them your way whenever he shares!
October 24, 2013 at 2:50 pm
my condolences on the loss of a family member. kudos to your new job. and when the world brings you down, let out your bear-shark roar.
October 24, 2013 at 7:48 pm
Thanks man, lol, I’ve been roaring my bear-shark roar all up and down this place. It does make me feel a bit better. Hope you like your drawing, lol… I can do a more serious one if the pink was not your color.
October 25, 2013 at 5:01 am
i’d appreciate any of your creations. i think they’re awesome. humorous too. do you need a new face? that sounded weird. i mean with my face.
October 24, 2013 at 2:58 pm
Virtual hug <3
October 24, 2013 at 7:49 pm
C: Thanks Marry! ILU!
October 24, 2013 at 4:41 pm
I am so sorry about your loss Everyone grieves in their own way and on their own time, I am here if you need someone to talk to!! Congratulations on getting the job! I knew you would get it, It’s o.k. about the award thingy, I came home from visiting my mom the other day and there were 4 in my mailbox! I can’t keep up either, I love the new ice cream flavor, and thank you for Pikachu eating a burger!! Yayyyyy You got the Job!!!! WOOOO- HOOOOO!!!!!! LOVIE YOU!!!
October 24, 2013 at 7:50 pm
Thanks Annie, that means a lot. I am excited to start my new job, lol, and get back to a schedule that I can continue my procrastination blogging time in. I’m glad you liked pikachu, lol!
October 24, 2013 at 4:41 pm
For one congratulations on that job, and I hope it is productive and fulfilling. I love the video of the LED costume for the little girl, maybe that could work out on a pet. Just a thought haha.
And lastly the part nobody ever wants to touch. My condolences for your loss. I had my own fair share of bad news yesterday, and it was a surprise because apparently your family doesn’t communicate things anymore and prefers to notify everybody else. So from me to you…This shit sucks and it isn’t easy to deal with. Hang in there, and keep chuggin’ forward. My response probably doesn’t have the best wording, and I apologize. So here’s some animals being bros. http://i.imgur.com/UGnkXL5.gif
October 24, 2013 at 7:53 pm
Thank you Sven, I hope so too! If you try it on a pet, I would like to see videos and pictures.
Thank you for your kind words, I’m sorry for yours :( I hope you stay strong as well. Ireally liked the animals being bros, lol – it makes me want to get pets…but then I’m reminded that I can’t even keep a plant alive.
October 24, 2013 at 4:51 pm
P.S. I Looooove the new banner, Why PAPRIKA THAT IS SIMPLY MAAARVELOUUUS!!!!!!
October 24, 2013 at 7:53 pm
Lol, thank you for noticing Annie, I put it up to just see how it looked – I should really put back the Halloween theme cause its still October, lol.
October 24, 2013 at 5:43 pm
Congratulations for the publication
October 24, 2013 at 7:54 pm
Thank you I think? I’m not sure what you’re referring to morenis.
October 24, 2013 at 9:00 pm
I’m mentally sending you the biggest SAP huggles ever!
Also: CONGRATS ON YOUR JOB I KNEW YOU WOULD SHOW THEM HOW AWESOME AND COOL YOUR FACE IS!
–> btw it took me like 30 minutes to post this because this thing logged me out and I couldn’t remember my password :<
October 29, 2013 at 3:25 pm
ILOVEYOUSOHARD. Thanks for listening to all my random poop anxiety things.
Thanks! I am excited! LOOK AT ME, MY FACE IS AWESOME, TAKE IT IN. That’s what I’ll say.
October 24, 2013 at 9:21 pm
Congrats on the job and your awards! Sorry for all that you are going through. It definitely takes time. <3 My mom passed away this summer from breast cancer. I started blogging partly because of her. She was my 1# fan- : ) **Hugs**
October 29, 2013 at 3:26 pm
OMG Rebecca, I’m so sorry to hear about your mom, cancer is the absolute worst. Its what overtook my family member as well. I’m glad she inspired you to blog, she will always be your #1 fan, but I’mma call dibs on #2!!!
Thanks so much for the love!!!
November 15, 2013 at 2:34 pm
I’m always surprised that people age and stage of life blog at all. At your age, I was so involved in career, child rearing (yeah, I started young), marriage, friends, parties, more work … I didn’t have time to watch TV much less blog, if such a thing had existed. And grieving … it’s a process. You can’t hurry it. It happens to you, you don’t happen to it.
Don’t worry about blogging. You’ve got LIFE happening. Live it. Be in the moment. Plenty of time for blogging when you get old. Youth is short. Be there.