In a few moments I will be packing up some essential papers, dusting off some black heels and heading over to my first hospital job interview.
So this is a big deal, but some part of me has already made peace with the fact that it may not work out. Probably because it took months to even land a phone interview and then months later I am showing up in person for a completely different position. A lot of things can go wrong right now. A lot of things already have. But I am optimistic, if I don’t get this job I’ll get another and if I do get this job I hope that its my chance to exhale. I’ve still got people in my life that I love to pieces and a family that I wouldn’t trade for anything. If I’ve got some sweet, sweet income to accompany that I’ll be pretty satisfied. If I don’t, nothing really changes. I still won’t have a working AC in my car, and I’ll still be broke. But I’ve been broke all my life, so this isn’t a deal breaker. It’s not the end of the world. Rejection is a part of life.
I like to recite to myself the excerpt from Radiohead’s “Meeting People is Easy” anytime I am nervous of any type of rejection:
“If you have been rejected many times in your life, then one more rejection isn’t going to make much difference. If you’re rejected, don’t automatically assume it’s your fault. The other person may have several reasons for not doing what you are asking her to do: none of it may have anything to do with you. Perhaps the person is busy or not feeling well or genuinely not interested in spending time with you. Rejections are part of everyday life. Don’t let them bother you. Keep reaching out to others. When you begin to receive positive responses then you are on the right track. It’s all a matter of numbers. Count the positive responses and forget about the rejections.” -OK Computer’s Meeting People is Easy
Cross yer fingers, I’m not nervous yet, but I think once I step out the door I’m going to feel that wonderfully familiar anxiety kick in.